It's Tuesday but it feels like a Thursday. I might be making that up because I can't think of what a Thursday feels like. Maybe the feeling you get before you get paid but I'm definitely not getting paid tomorrow and even if I was, that money belongs to TMobile nem lol all those random bill collectors. So I take that back. It doesn't feel like Thursday. Honestly, I don't know what today feels like but whatever it is, it's not Tuesday. I don't even want tacos. Go figure. Can't lie y'all. My head doesn't feel like it's on completely straight today. It's not a bad day. Just kind of feel like I'm in a haze. My Dad's been in the hospital since late Saturday and that's mainly all I'm thinking about. I've definitely got to snap out of it because I've got a lot of work to do this week. It's weird though. I think I've always sort of seen my Father as a superhero. Most people do but to be more specific, I mean immortal in a Hulk Hogan type of way. I used to watch wrestling and almost blew up when Hulk Hogan's music hit. It never seemed like he was going to lose like ever. This is 80s and 90s wrestling where the champion was the champion for years. I think I've mentioned before how I cried when Hulk Hogan lost to the Undertaker at Survivor Series in 91. Bobby Heenan is screaming that Hulkamania is dead and I'm just crying and yelling "Noooooooooo!!!!" I had NO idea Hulk would lose like that lol. So in comparison, I felt the same way about my Dad but that's gone into adulthood as well. He's an Ironman. Like he's the type of dude that tolerates pain at high high level, doesn't show fear or discomfort. Like I literally have never seen my Dad scared of anything. NOTHING!!! But last night, he was so uncomfortable that I could see the discomfort on his face and that shook me. It was like seeing somebody sneak punch Superman with a kryptonite glove and you're like, "Oh, it just got real!" Anyway, that's all that I've been thinking about. I most likely will take a few minutes to fully process all that and then move on to do what I need to do. End scene lol
I'm not exactly sure why I like Stormtroopers so much. Maybe it's the armor making it such a dope costume. Who knows. I know when Attack of the Clones came out, I saw it at the theater like 3 times on opening day. Watching Star Wars as a kid, I always thought it was dope that they had those laser guns. I'm really not sure though. I just really really like Stormtroopers lol. The black Death Trooper, the Red Praetorian Guards from The Last Jedi, all that. They get killed pretty easy but that never mattered. Maybe it's because I low-key have an affinity for the Dark Side of the force. The Jedi have and always will be interesting but the dark side in my opinion explores different parts of the force that we wouldn't otherwise see. The Jedi Masters were basically a clan of priests lol. Before you laugh, just hear me out. It's a bunch of dudes that quote scriptures and philosophy forward and backwards. They're all old. Can't have girlfriends. Can't be married. Lots of young boys lol no shade, it just seems boring in comparison. When you think about it, if they'd let Anakin Skywalker be with Padme, he would never have turned into Darth Vader. Loose theory but think about it lol. Anyhow, there a few things that I'd take as a gift at anytime. Like when in doubt on a birthday or Christmas or something, a go to gift would be anything Stormtroopery lol. Something good though. Now that it's Halloween costume season I have a reason to rock my Trooper cos. I really don't need a reason I guess but it's a good excuse nonetheless (shrug.) ...I'm sorry. I really feel like my brain is just all over the place right now. Talking about Star Wars makes me want to watch Star Wars lol so maybe I'll do that to help get past that kind of down feeling. Always helps so why not?
Hopefully your Tuesday has been awesome and you're ending it with tacos as you should (don't be a rebel like me lol). Thanks for reading and if you get a chance, like, share and subscribe please and thank you!!
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