Wednesday is usually the turning point in the week for me as far as work. By the end of the day, there's still work to do but the majority of the stressful things that needed to be done during the week are done. Today is a little different but I'm not really stressed at all. I actually enjoy this feeling. You know when you have a bunch of stuff to do but are confident not only in your ability to get them done but assurance because there's a 95 percent or better chance that you actually will? Yeah that's it. That's the feeling. I'm not really sure where I'm going with this yet. I'm a level 36 Pokemon Trainer on Pokemon Go so I waste a lot of time playing that game. It's a pretty good time waster though. Somehow we even got my Dad into playing. The thing about him playing is that when he's on board with something, he's on board all the way so there's no part time Pokemon playing. He does it and does it better than everybody else. I had actually stopped playing for almost a year and some and then started again when he joined in. Next thing you know, like 2 months had gone by and he was a level higher than anybody else I knew. Now he's a level 40 or he will be by the weekend for sure, and that's the highest you can get lol. Crazy right? It's just cool to watch my Dad get really into things because of his "all in" type of way of doing things. My brothers and I used to watch my Dad play games all the time. I think I mentioned that when I talked about how he used to play the Legend of Zelda. We would literally want for him to play so we could watch him play...for hours!! Like the same way kids watch YouTube today just to watch other kids play with toys and games they already have. That was our real life YouTube.
My Father worked really hard and when we were younger he worked 2nd shift so we didn't get to spend a lot of time with him on weekdays. He left right before we got home from school and didn't get off until way after our bedtime. Later on when we grew up he tried to apologize to us for having to work as much as he did but I wasn't trying to hear all that. My Dad is the best man I know and I never questioned what a man should be because of the type of example he always was /is. I definitely haven't lived up to that example just yet but it's not because he didn't teach me. I'm just dumb about some things. The type of nigga that can't just see the fire but gotta touch it too SMH . Anyway, he apologized and my brothers and I all told him that he didn't have to do any of that. He afforded us a childhood we wouldn't have had without him and I'm not talking about toys and gifts. It wasn't until I had kids and a family of my own that I realized even more the things he did and the things he went through to be able to provide for the family. My Dad never never never never never made an excuse ever. Because when you're a Father and you have people in your household that depend on you, you don't make excuses. You just do what needs to be done. So I understood why he couldn't be at every football game or do activities in a higher volume. It was never that he didn't want to, it was that there are only so many hours in a day and at the end of it, it was his job to make sure we had what was necessary. I'll never forget this. I had extremely bad asthma growing up. It was bad to the point where when I got sick I could barely take steps to walk anywhere without losing my breath. I had to have this medicine that at the time was really expensive and I'd spilled it. Because of the way the insurance worked, I couldn't get another one covered and so he had to pay out of pocket. I was so scared to even tell anyone that I'd spilled that medicine but I was too sick to really hide the fact that I needed it. I remember that we were right on money at the time because my Mom told me and brothers in a conversation to understand why we couldn't be wasting things around the house and had to be more responsible. Parent stuff. Well that's all that was going through my mind when I spilled that medicine. My Mom found it first and she was so angry, not because I'd spilled it but because I hadn't said anything and now I needed it. My Dad had just come home from work so by ithen it was late. She told him I spilled it and I'm just waiting to be in trouble...but it never happened. All I heard him say is, "Well, he needs it..." and then he went and found an open pharmacy and got it. He didn't shoot me an angry look, he didn't tell at me because he had to pay for it all out of pocket, none of that... and that's when I began to understand the role of a GOOD Father. Being an adult is just doing series after series of things you may not want to do but you do them because they need to be done. My Dad feels in a way like he may have missed too much with me and my bros but honestly, he didn't and WE would've missed out on much more had he not made the decision to be the type of Father that he was/is.
See, I said when I started that I didn't know where I was going as far as the direction of today's blog and here's where we ended up lol. I hope that everyone had a happy hump day and if you so see fit, please like, share and subscribe. Deuces!!!
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